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Hello Everyone,

First off, someone out there employed some kind of PHP-based attack against our website.  Basically, they found a way to gain access to the code on one of our pages or configuration files and modified it to direct to a virus of some sort.  Luckily, this also generated a PHP error, which tipped us off to a problem.  This has since been corrected and we apologize if anyone was infected.  To the individual who did this, well played, sir.  However, I do not appreciate the setback. [UPDATE: Still having issues with this, working on a plan to correct]

Anyway, that was not the main topic of this post…

The general public tends to be oblivious of critical computer-related security news.  It is only important to them if it directly causes problems for them.  For example, when the Playstation Network was down for almost a month because of a security breech, everyone cared, but, when a potential social movement has been started by hackers/hacktivists online, nobody seems to be any the wiser.

About a week ago the hacker group LulzSec, which has since been disbanded, and the hacker group Anonymous teamed up to start a movement called Anti-Sec or the Anti-Security Movement.  The goal is to basically un-earth corruption in governments, businesses and in the security industry in order to expose these dark deeds to the people of the world so that justice might be served.

I will say that this announcement immediately prompted me to change a vast majority of my passwords to more secure ones, and so that I wasn’t using the same password on multiple websites.  I would highly suggest that anyone reading this do the same.  An example of a secure password might be something like “a7X2!4T”.  Notice it contains upper and lowercase letters, numbers and at least one special character.  Yes, it is harder to remember but, it is also harder to guess.

That aside, I was intrigued.  I wonder, what is the level of morality on these hackers’s efforts.  One one side, two wrongs never make a right and stealing/breaking and entering is definitely wrong.

On the other side, there are many governments, companies and organizations who are committing crimes against the people they should be serving and getting away with it for an extended period of time.

Some of the recent information releases from the AntiSec movement have revealed things like the DOD discussing a vaccine to turn off the so-called “God-gene” which is what inspires religious belief and fanaticism.  There have also been breaks into a security consulting firm HB Gary, which revealed plans to use emails, text messages and other activities to try to root out “extremists” without notification to anyone.  Basically privacy being intruded upon.

So the fundamental question becomes, is finding out this information pointing toward the common good or not?  I for one, don’t like the idea of a vaccine to “cure” me of my religious belief, even if not designed to be implemented on me.  I also don’t like the idea that my emails and communications could be read or listened into without my consent.

Granted, some of these things have been going on for a while, and there hasn’t really been too much public outcry, after all, giving up some liberty and privacy for the sake of security is ok, right?  I’m not always sure about that.

I will say this, I think that taking down websites and releasing users’ information for their paypal, AOL, Gmail and Amazon accounts is not exposing corruption.  it does expose people for not being security minded and for using easy passwords but, there are moral ways to do this.

However, when there are releases of databases from government and security organizations clearly pointing towards something sinister, I can’t help but think that we should know about this.  I can’t help but think that there are some bigger things out there being hidden from us.  While, I am not a conspiracy theorist, I can say that I think that personal privacy is quickly dying and that there are some links of corruption and conspiracy between some companies and certain governments.  I also think that any of these activities which are illegal should be brought to light and that the people committing said crimes should be punished.

Now, again, the moral issue comes into play.  Is stealing right? No.  Is a company or government misleading its citizens or exploiting them right either? No.  Which is the greater evil?

I can’t answer that.  However, I can say that I can’t help but support the Anti-Sec movement on some level, even if simply from an observation standpoint.

I must also point out that this doesn’t only apply to the American Government.  There are many countries that we take for granted, such as Brazil, Zimbabwe and countries in the Middle East that are exceedingly corrupt and commit serious crimes against their own people, including genocide and removing those who speak out against the government.  Our military forces are not big enough or strong enough to battle on behalf of those people and neither are they.  Perhaps getting some information out might inspire the people of the world to stand up against some objective evils being committed.  I don’t know.

In the end, I will be a silent observer and supporter.  I don’t support anything that does further harm to the average person, nor anything that does illegitimate harm to someone’s reputation, even if they are a politician or CEO.  However, if there is real evidence of crimes against the people of the world, I hope and pray that justice will be served because of said evidence.

So, to Anonymous, whoever you guys are, I support you to that extent, and hope that just maybe your actions might inspire some legitimate change for the better, both for the United States and the World.

A Vision of the Mass

Yesterday at Mass, God blessed me with an idea/vision of what is really going on at Mass to share with others.  So, I am finally getting a chance to write it down for the world to see.

Imagine the following:

You enter into your parish Church for your Sunday obligation.  You are tired because you didn’t sleep well the night before and really could care less about being here.  But, today is different.

As the opening song begins, the walls of the building begin to disappear.  You notice as you look around you there are people, of every race, color and creed stretching far as the eye can see.  You can see dead relatives smiling and looking with anticipation as the High Priest enters into the Sanctuary.

The alter sits at the center of this vast area, above and behind the alter is a bright light, too bright to look at but, still, not burning your eyes.  A beautiful woman, clothed in while is sitting in a place of honor in the front pew, and the High Priest smiles at her as he walks by.

The Mass begins with the opening prayer.  This would seem normal to you, except that everyone around you understands what is being spoken, even those from other regions of the globe!

Then the Gloria starts.  Up until this point, you hadn’t noticed the angels.  Angels that had been there all along, singing praises to God, now raised their voices all the louder to the High Priest and the light above and behind the alter.  The sound is so powerful, so awe inspiring, that it brings you to tears and inspires you to join in the praise of the Lord.

The high priest is seated and the readings begin.  They are read by volunteers from several nations, each speaking in their native tongue, but, all understanding.

The psalms are lead by a Cherubim and all sing aloud in response.  The Alleluia before the Gospel, again causes the angels to sing in such a manner that is unfathomable to mortal ears, yet you hear it none the less.

Then the High Priest speaks.  He preaches the Gospel in a way you have never heard before.  He speaks with authority and unflinching integrity.  You have never seen a priest like Him before, nor will you, for He is the Priest of priests, from whom all priesthood stems from.

The High Priest proceeds to explain the Gospel and other readings.  You can’t help but feel like He is speaking about your very life, directly to you.  Clearly, He couldn’t be, after all, there are billions around you.  But, somehow, the message applies directly to some of your greatest struggles, and you come away from the homily, knowing that God is with you in those struggles.

After the homily, all the members gathered arise and as one voice declare their statement of belief, in the Trinity, the Church and the Resurrection.  You are struck by the sheer amount of people surrounding you, professing the same belief as you.  You have never felt so connected, and feel that you will never be alone in your beliefs.

The community then joins in prayer for one another, and for those who couldn’t be present.  There are those who’s attraction to sin prevents them from taking place in the celebration.

The High Priest begins the Eucharistic prayer and the sacrifice is prepared.  The Priest offers Himself, and is joined and surrounded by every priest who is or who was, con-celebrating the Mass.  After all, their priesthood is His and they all in one voice pray together.

This leads to the grandest and loudest angelic proclamation of all.  For, this proclamation is what the angels sing day and night, and for one moment, the entire world of believers is united in their song of praise.

“Holy, Holy, Holy Lord, God of Power and Might, Heaven and earth are full of Your Glory, Hosanna in the Highest”…

The High Priest then outstretches his arms, facing His Father, the great light behind the alter.  He then sacrifices Himself for all present, the woman in the front pew has tears of pride, joy and sorrow in her eyes, for she is His mother.

The High Priest’s Body begins to glow as he lifts bread and a chalice of wine, in turn towards the heavens and the congregation.

“This is my body, This is my blood”

As these words are spoken the glow envelops the bread and wine, and they are no longer bread and wine.  They are Him, they have become His Body, His Blood, His Soul and His Divinity all in one.  They are, the divine food ridding all of hunger and the divine drink ridding all of thirst.

The entire congregation cries Amen as the High Priest completes the offering.  Then, all join in the very prayer that He handed down to the nations, a prayer He gave when asked how we should pray.

The congregation then re-assert to the High Priest that all the kingdom, all the glory and all the honor belong to the Father, flowing through the High Priest and the Holy Spirit, for we are nothing without them.

The High Priest then breathes on the crowd and wishes them peace.  A single dove floats down from the light and flies forward towards you.  As it does, a fire flames out from its tail feathers, and as the dove circles, the fire encompasses all, for He is the Holy Spirit and brings the peace of God the Father and God the Son to all.

The congregation then greet each other and offer signs of peace.  Every nation on earth, reaching out to one another in a single peaceful moment, almost as if there was no division amongst them.

Then comes the greatest moment of the celebration, the feast.  Each person, knowing full well what the High Priest is calling then to receive, declares their unworthiness before the Lord.  Yet, He invites them still.

As you receive the Eucharist and declare that it is, in truth, the Body of Christ, you feel the light and presence of the Lord, the High Priest, Christ Himself, within you, transforming you and making you more like Him.

The High Priest smiles at you as you bow to him in full reverence.  It is almost as if He is saying “well done, my good and faithful servant”.

Everyone returns to their pews and kneel, praying in thanksgiving, for the Gift which they have been given.

The High Priest stands, as does the congregation, and all participate in the final prayer of sending, the Lord encouraging all to bring Him out into the world.

As the final song is sung, the High Priest exits and you began to look around you.  You simply see your home parish and the people you know and Break Bread with every Sunday.  But, very few seem to be aware of what you have just seen, in fact, many seem like they had not ever really been there in the first place.

You begin to make your way out of the building, knowing that you CAN’T be the only one to have experienced this,  You walk up to the priest and tell him how amazing the celebration was.  He smiles at you and says, “thank you, but it was not me, but the Spirit and the priesthood of the Lord that make this Mass what it is.”  You can’t help but notice a slight twinkle in his eye as he speaks with you.  He knows!

So you walk away from the Mass, a changed person.  You now feel the strength of the Lord in you and decide to work to amend your ways and to be a sign of God for those around you.  You will gladly give anything to experience what you saw, and experienced this day again.  But, you will experience it, every time you enter into the Catholic Church for Mass, and for all eternity thereafter, for, there is only one Mass, and only one High Priest, who is Christ the Lord.

Who We Are

We are all trying to find a place to fit in.  Some of us seem secure and comfortable with our surroundings, while others struggle to survive on the outside.  I once thought I had a high self-esteem, but now I am not so sure.  An overachiever and an offbeat at best, or a beatnik and weirdo in the eyes of others, I didn’t seem to care what other people thought, but that’s probably because they were already the ones I was living for. 

I strived to be noticed through my grades and stand out in some unique way.  But at the end of the day, I was exhausted pleasing everyone else.  The person I should have been pleasing was God.  This world has a way of controlling us and our feelings.  What I thought mattered, really didn’t.  What I should have been feeling was so far hidden for myself to even find.  We hold on to things as a way to feel real and meaningful in this world, like us being here makes a difference.  But truthfully, through our relationship with God is the only way to leave a lastly impression in his heart and those we love.  The opposite seems to happen again and again until we figure out that we are doing something wrong.  We do not run the world, but easily it can control us.  If we left God be in control of our lives, we will be more fulfilled, loving, and needed.

God will help us to feel things we have longed for, and we will be able to do things we never thought possible.  He has already given us the skills we need to be the persons we are capable of.  Looking for his guidance will further give us definition and security in who we were meant to be.

-Tanya

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Finding Out What Matters

Things:
Fleeting
passing
finite.

God:
Loving
lasting
infinite.

It is not hard to choose.
The latter will be sure to sanctify.

-Tanya

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Mommy's Day Out

Since the season of winter is resulting in snow and nasty weather, my days out have decreased in number.  Though, it has become a blessing in disguise and I have enjoyed myself more by having a longer length of reflection at one time.  This longer span of time gives me more time to focus and digest all the thoughts that God throws at me.  I can go through my week and enjoy my time with Linus knowing that I will have my time at the end of it.  It gives me comfort to know that I have something to look forward to and not just endless days of toddler interaction.

Over the summer, it was an hour here or there, but since Linus is older and can go longer without nursing, I can take a chunk of hours for me.  I find this ‘me’ time has slowly been evolving over the course through this website.  I am sure it will change as life does, but right now, I am enjoying this once a week time.  My husband is caring enough to support me and give me the freedom to enjoy myself.  Spending so much time caring for others often leaves me without the strength to care for me.  Carving out the time is a step in the right direction for strengthening my self-esteem, spirit, and life.  I am able to fulfill and renew my soul during this block of hours with whatever  I choose I need.  Usually, it is hours on end at a Starbucks with coffee and a sweet treat.  Since my time is more compact, I have decided to make it more special by splurging on a baked good to go with my coffee.  Plus, if I do it as a separate transaction, it counts as another star for our Starbucks Rewards! 

I have kept track of what baked goods I have tried, so that way, I get something new each time.  This list started last week, so this week it was the blueberry scone.  I guess I am on a scone kick.  I reward my boys for ‘me’ time by bringing them home a special dinner feast bought with coupon deals (sometimes a combination of them).  Right now, this schedule is working for our family.

-Tanya

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